Kevins Letter to Zeth

I couldn't begin to tell you about the pain I feel after losing my baby boy in that awfil fire that New Years Day morning. I relive that tragic morning every minute of every day and its not getting any easier. I would rather walk through fire everyday for the rest of my life than lose my son and feel this pain I have right now. Those of you who have lost a child know what Im talking about and those of you who havent dont even try to imagine because you have that security of reaching over and hugging your child, but I dont. I love every one of my children but me and Zeth had  a special bond that was unique. Zeth was my youngest of all of my children and was born on my birthday. He is the birthday present I will cherish and treasure forever.

Everyday when I came home from work since the time he could pull up, he was always standing there in the screen door waiting for me with the biggest smile on his face saying "Daddy! You're home. Hold me." If I ever had to go some where and he couldnt go, I had to sneak out because if I left and he saw me and I didnt take him, he sat at that screen door crying until I came back. One of the things he loved to do the most was ride in Daddys truck and going to Paw Paws house. When he rode with me in my truck, he sat tight against my hip and wrapped my arm around him and put on a great big smiole. From the time I got up in the morning to the time I went to bed, he wouldnt let me out of his sight. No matter how mad i was or sad or just having a bad day, his hugs and kisses made it all better. He made me feel so special and I felt like his whole world. I love every one of my kids but part of me died in the fire with my baby.

Everyone who knew him can remember the big smile on his face and the big hugs he gave. The one thing that is scarred in me forever was his last words. I couldnt see him, but I heard him say, "Daddy, Daaaddddyy" and that pushed me harder and harder to get to him. But God has a plan for Zeth and his time here was up. God wasnt going to let me interfere with it. I will always miss my "Z-Baby" and Im sure the hurt will never go away, but I am greatful to him.

To Zeth- Where ever you are baby just know I will always love you and one day we'll be back together, until then  you will always be in my heart and not a day will go by I dont think of you. You'll forever by my Z-Baby.

Love,

Daddy